It has been awhile since I’ve taken the time to pour my heart out, add my favorite photos, and click “publish”… it has been a long time to just blog. I miss that. I miss clicking that “publish” button- knowing that I’ve written our story and documented and captured our family happenings.
We’ve been going through big life changes. There has been many times where the scale wasn’t always balanced, where my frustrations outweighed my patience, and the cons stacked up well above the pros. There has been times were I’ve retreated, times where I’ve backpedaled, and many times where I’ve questioned the decisions I’ve made. I do a lot of questioning-- I question myself, I question my abilities.
Ultimately, I’m pressing forward. I have a huge fear of giving up and failing. I want to succeed, but by succeeding means sacrifice. I’m going against the norm and following my gut.
As some of you know, I’ve made the leap into homeschooling. Yes, homeschooling. I never thought in a million years that I would be a homeschool mom, but here I sit, anchored to the desk teaching math, science, composition, history, and so on. I know homeschooling is temporary solution- there will be a day when military orders come down and we’ll move states and Krysta goes back to public school, but with all the issues we had with Tinker Elementary, I feel like this was our best option for the time being.
As much as I’m sacrificing, it has been worth it. Krysta feels safe and secure, the information that I’m teaching her is sticking, and she’s rebuilding her confidence.
The juice is worth the squeeze.
(and here is a pretty picture --a friendly reminder-- that I still have a bucket of photos to share with you from our vacay in Hawaii)